I went back to the doctor today. I saw a different doctor again--seen 3 so far and I think there might be 10 at the practice? Once I got past all the anxiety and worry at the beginning, I figured I needed as many of them as possible to see my records. I don't really care who takes the baby out of me, I'm bummed it's not my doctor in Nashville.But I want them to know what exactly I went through, and that most likely I will be asking for medicine to stay sane if there are any blood pressure issues. I would prefer to just be knocked out for 2 days after, but I know that's not an option! We went ahead and scheduled my c-section for December 5th. I should get the papers soon in the mail about it. I also signed my papers for my tubes to be tied. Luke and I were both worried that if everything goes fine, I beat all odds and make it to 39 weeks, I'd have second thoughts about wanting another. He didn't want me laying on the table and NOT wanting to go through with it. BUT, I can't do this again. I'm still having a hard enough time thinking that we are starting over. We now have another 18 years to add on until we can have a life again ;) The first 15ish weeks of this pregnancy were pretty much crying and worrying and anxiety and not good thoughts. I had just gotten out of a bad place mentally, was getting into a great routine with the kids, had almost gotten rid of all the weight I gained after Lucy came home ,and then just wanted to crawl back under my covers and stay there all day when all our future plans seemed to be changing. I have tried to keep all thoughts away the past 14 weeks, which also include actually realizing we will have another baby here in the next 10 weeks! We haven't really 'prepared' too much for baby #3. But I'm still taking my weekly pictures. I'm mainly doing them because I don't want this baby to feel unwanted later on down the line if she finds out how non-excited I was. She still deserves the anticipation and excitement as the others. So taking the pictures is helping me remember each week that I am carrying a precious little baby that is a wonderful blessing to our family!
|I had to photoshop the chalboard into this week's pictures. I ran out of time to make it.|
|We went with my friends to see Wicked on my birthday !|
|In the new house. The chalkboard doesn't have a place yet! I think it will eventually go into Lucy's room after baby comes.|
I passed my glucose test today at my appointment. My blood pressure is still great, and still showing no protein in my urine! AND I didn't have a massive weight jump--that's a bad sign too(big weight gain). I've gained a total of 15 pounds so far, and still enjoying my cheesecake =)
Now some photos to catch up on the last 2 weeks:
|Another picture from my birthday night with Cindy Sue.|
|The cheesecake Cindy got me for my birthday!!! I ate a piece a day ;)|
|Lucy's first football game--out of my tummy ;) Go Cards! It wasn't the prettiest 4th quarter, but they are still undefeated, and we're excited for the last 4 home games!|
Lucy's arrival was about 6 days from this point, and I believe we will make it past that point. Every day we pass, we will be thrilled! Although we prefer she stays until at least Thanksgiving, we know every extra day inside is awesome! We also know that we saw babies that were 7-8 pounds on ventilators, on antibiotics, and not thriving. Lucy is a miracle & we know this baby will be also! We are anticipating a few more updates before we post pictures of baby!